Weakness from waiting

It is very possible to making a living from my sailboat. The technology and access to work opportunities is very accessible. I am well suited to work independently. My personality type needs solitude and aesthetically pleasing work environments. I just need to update my website, continue checking for work, and wait. However, I'm not good at waiting. I tend to loose confidence and doubt myself. However, like job search, waiting pays off. I need to hang on to the things that give me strength.
This morning's drawing is of a deer I saw early one morning north of Baxter. The scene reminded me of a Bible verse how God created me with the grace and strength of a deer. If I am created with Intentional Design there must be a special purpose for my design.....I just got to wait while I'm discovering it.